I've been working for 2 days and already I am paranoid and depressing myself into a rut. I can't help but feel like there's so much expected of me for being an Atenean, and I don't want to let those expectations down because I know what Ateneans are capable of and I don't want to be the bad fruit in the bucket. I should work harder you know, and ( Read more... )

I had a classmate in Fiction class last semester named Iggy. He was probably the best writer among the lot of us, even though he was always red in the face. I like to think that he was suffering from the characteristic shyness I think all writers are afflicted with, but really, I think he might just always feel hot.

Anyway (I dislike how this is ( Read more... )

Even though I have blogged recently about humility, acceptance and not stressing, I found myself crying in front of the computer, afraid of the things I cannot see, the things I cannot do, and of being a person I cannot be.

God, oh God, I pray. Grant me grace under this fire, because it blazes and I cannot bear it alone.

I need some advice.

I am traumatized by a person. I mean it. I can't think of that particular person without breaking into a cold sweat and triggering my fight-or-flight response. I want to never see them again but apparently that's not possible because we'll be meeting in a few days.

Guys, help me.

First moves suck.

Is this what guys feel? This horrible, senseless panic that putting your feelings on the line always entails? Even though I say that I'm over him, there's this part of me that's still going to get hurt if he does say that this was all one-sided in the beginning. On the other hand, I also don't want him to reciprocate, because there ( Read more... )